After getting diagnosed and trying drugs, I felt like my mind is slowed down and not jumping around anymore thinking dozens of different things. At first it was nice to be able to do one thing at a time. But after couple months I started to feel like my brain is just drugged and I’m not having any kind of control over my thinking. It has been slowed down by being partially disabled, at least it felt like it. So I stopped doing drugs, started daily HIIT practice to get out of my mind and back to feeling my body, started to learn to pay attention to things I’m doing at the moment. It’s still a struggle, but the one I have control over, it even feels a bit empowering.