I have a deep urge to be independent, but I think my mind has taken it too far. I want to be able to make everything myself, I want to do all from machining, to electronics and plumbing to bricklaying to programming.
I feel like men reach more for this independence or am I crazy?
Go for it. Just don’t try do everything at once and burn out.
Treat it as a hobby. Spend money on tools you may only need for a single project. Experiment. Take your time. Watch youtube videos of other makers to scratch your itch, when you can’t (or don’t want to) actually do it yourself. Appricate the beauty of enginerring around you. Enjoy the process.
Just start. Either you gain a new fulfilling new hobby, or you satisify your urge enough, and stop being crazy.
Some recommendations to get you started: