stress, mental health improvement, near meltdown, sobriety
Had the kind of day yesterday where every inanimate object and technological gizmo were conspiring against me personally
Anything on a shelf fell off, anything I looked at wrong fell over, every app crashed or froze, Bluetooth wouldn’t pair, a broom broke off in the bristle head thing so I couldn’t even just replace the stick part without chiseling out the end of the old broken stick, etc
Just exhausting tedious stressful bullshit non stop
Still managed to make myself go to the gym and had a relatively good leg day
Absolutely gassed, walking funny, finally get to the shower
The shower curtain bar fucking falls off and on my head, don’t have my glasses on, can’t see shit to fix it, water still running and getting on the floor, just a shit show
ALMOST lose my fucking shit and start throwing everything and breaking shit (more)
Manage to do DBT self dialogue shit after I loudly curse a couple times and Velma without her glasses/McGyver my way out of that bullshit
Almost road rage at a dumbass not using their blinker on the way home and get pissed at my shitmobile’s screechy fan belt for the heater/AC trying to defog the windows and punch the horn a couple times
Didn’t lose control
Old me definitely would have and this would’ve made me go on an 80 proof 1.75L nosedive for a couple days, stayed dry this time
One day at a time
The fuckin’ way she goes bud
Not trying to sound like a jerk in case you’re doing a lil’ goof but if you’re ESL and were unsure of the English word for that body part, it’s “ankle”
(leg wrist sounds more fun tbh though)
Congrats on the music stuff! I need to practice my instruments more and finding the time for it has been rough lately