LocalOaf [they/them, ze/hir]

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Cake day: July 8th, 2024

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  • stress, mental health improvement, near meltdown, sobriety

    Had the kind of day yesterday where every inanimate object and technological gizmo were conspiring against me personally

    Anything on a shelf fell off, anything I looked at wrong fell over, every app crashed or froze, Bluetooth wouldn’t pair, a broom broke off in the bristle head thing so I couldn’t even just replace the stick part without chiseling out the end of the old broken stick, etc

    Just exhausting tedious stressful bullshit non stop

    Still managed to make myself go to the gym and had a relatively good leg day

    Absolutely gassed, walking funny, finally get to the shower

    The shower curtain bar fucking falls off and on my head, don’t have my glasses on, can’t see shit to fix it, water still running and getting on the floor, just a shit show

    ALMOST lose my fucking shit and start throwing everything and breaking shit (more)

    Manage to do DBT self dialogue shit after I loudly curse a couple times and Velma without her glasses/McGyver my way out of that bullshit

    Almost road rage at a dumbass not using their blinker on the way home and get pissed at my shitmobile’s screechy fan belt for the heater/AC trying to defog the windows and punch the horn a couple times

    Didn’t lose control

    Old me definitely would have and this would’ve made me go on an 80 proof 1.75L nosedive for a couple days, stayed dry this time

    One day at a time nyet

    The fuckin’ way she goes bud aubrey-pain



  • Gone to the gym everyday since I got a new membership

    weight loss/diet/exercise stuff

    Back of the napkin math, I’m at least around -1000kcals under resting metabolic rate at the same time I’m burning at least 1000 more than I usually do

    Idk if I’m hypomanic or what but I have like no appetite and eating enough/hitting my macros feels like a chore

    A lot of my meals have been soy-cutie+protein powder slurry

    I’m making (re)newbie gainz quick and I’m just kinda dreading when I’m gonna burn out on this pace

    For now though, I’m fixated on hitting various milestones and have lost two notches on my belt already in a week

    Most of my lifts are frustrating and disappointing to me now, but I wasn’t going regularly since early 2020 so that’s to be expected, and I’m trying to not fixate on Number Of Plates and just find good working weight for 5 sets that’s challenging but not “oh shit I’m dying/gonna injure myself”

    I still think I’m looking terrible, but at least I’m trending in a positive direction now

    lady-doge








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    Cleaning my rain gutters before rainy season really kicks off, it’s kind of a pain in the ass but getting a bunch of gunk out of there at once is oddly satisfying

    sobriety/alcoholism

    nyet

    Maintained sober streak, think I’ve got 3+ months now? That’s not really that long in the big picture but it’s like a quarter of a year and idk the last time I was dry that long and mentally I feel like it’s gonna stick this time

    Still haven’t handled my finances or renovated my bedroom like I’ve wanted to for awhile but I think I settled on a new amp head and a freeze-gamer PC as my treaty-treats for using my booze money getting sober, there’s a really affordable lunch box tube head that’s perfect for my needs and budget and I only need mid hardware to run the games I want to check out

    diet/exercise

    Stepped on a scale for the first time in awhile and was like joker-stare

    Set a goal weight and have been better about eating healthier and portion control

    My legs have been really achy and my knees hurt and the ankle I rolled is still bugging me but I’ve been more active overall

    Want to update my boosters and get a flu shot and workout clothes that fit better then get back to a gym and lift eventually

    I yearn for a good leg day but my health is kinda yes-honey-left






  • Well shit lmao, I kinda take back my previous comment, classical guitar (and flamenco and nylon string stuff in general) is one of the few areas I don’t really know what I’m talking about. oh-shit

    Segovia scale exercises and PIMA method finger picking technique guides are probably a good place to start. I can read music for piano and strings and know my theory pretty well, but I can’t sight read or figure out in what position written classical guitar stuff is intended to be played for enharmonics across the fretboard and playing distant intervals across separate strings simultaneously in classical fingerstyle technique is a real “pat head and rub tummy at the same time” kind of coordination mixup for me, I pretty much only use fingerstyle playing as an add-on to plectrum playing with hybrid picking.





  • Ordered cute lights to make my room comfy and incentivize myself to tidy up and redecorate

    Making an appointment at the bank to move my meager savings into a less unethical mutual fund and am thinking of treating myself to a new amp and/or a new PC

    Need to repair my shitty car and not looking forward to making my achy ass crawl under it in the driveway

    Have a job opportunity that I might be able to get that’s kinda good, I don’t think I’d enjoy the job itself that much but the starting wage is decent and the location is convenient and it has health insurance which is huge for me

    Need to get new clothes but I want to slim down first idk

    Have a goal weight and diet/fitness plan in mind but I have an ankle sprain and jammed thumb that are bugging me and keeping me from running or lifting for a bit