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Cake day: June 12th, 2023

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  • What makes me feel so bad is feeling like I was singled out and persuaded. It was also really weird that he seemed to try to convince me to go with him - he could have asked for the money itself, right? I didn’t think to ask if he’d just accept the sum without having me go with him. If he’d refused, that would have been a clear red flag that he was trying to get me to some shady spot and hurt me.

    But then again, if I were in that position, I could imagine asking people to come with me to do the payment for them so they see that I’m not swindling them and taking the money to buy drugs instead.

    😅




  • I’ll definitely be going, there’s no going back on that, it would be incredibly silly of me not to. I think I’m just finding it hard to adjust to life changing around me again. I had a really rough time growing up and university did me a whole lot of good, I adapted really well, got good grades, was social, and I’m just afraid of taking myself out of my comfort zone by moving when this was pretty much the first and only time in my life that I’ve felt fine.

    It’s even more silly because I’m not even done with uni yet, I still have one more year to go in my master’s. I’m just the kind of person that tries their hardest to plan their future, but right now I’m staring at a great unknown that I can’t rationally manage and find it hard to just “go with the flow” - is it even wise for me to do that?